so,

I didn't post the last two days because of life. Aura puts it greatly in a post from a month or so ago. (pst, you should go check out that blog. I freaking love it.) So, because of my lack of posting the last two days, I've decided to add two more day to the 27 day blogging challenge, because I really want to finish that.

Today, I think I'll blog about books.

Friday, I got this book. how sad. AP test in May, goodie.

But, then I was reading the back few pages of it last night where the Princeton Review was listing the other books they have, & it made me feel like I needed around around eight of their books just to get through high school, & two of the books within the next few months! At least one for the PSAT though, because I'm really nervous about that one!!

This weekend, I realized many things.

1) Weekends really are important to me in order to get my sanity back after a week of classes. Starting this Friday I MUST finish all my homework ASAP in order to fully enjoy my weekend.

2) I don't need to stress so much, it's all going to be alright. Even if I do end up going to college & having near $120,000 in debt, [$30,000 a year for four years!] it will all work out.

3) I need to stop assuming [yes, the one where it makes the blank out of you & me ( :] that I can't do something just because of my AGE. I can do anything someone that stays at home can, just in a longer amount of time, because I'm not going to live forever, & I can't let stereotypes get me down. If I want to take an AP class, make money on the side, sell things on Etsy, read the Bible in a year, & still do my chores, I CAN. I just really need to BELIEVE!!!

4) I need to eat healthier & in smaller portions, I AM TIRED OF PHYSICALLY FEELING SICK AFTER EATING.

5) I need to clean the house more, & really stay on my chores.

6) I need to enjoy the small things, because every second of my life is a blessing.

7) I don't need to worry about finding my soul mate right now [although I really did already know this], all I need to focus on is doing the things that will help my future.

& I think that's about it, I'm sure there are a few more, but I can't really think of them right now, because I'm so stinking tired!! so, I'm going to start heading to bed now. goodnight ( :

p.s. you should REALLY check out this & this & this. <3

stressing,

I just heard this song for the first time, & now I'll need to listen to some more of his songs. I'm really liking that song & video.

I can't believe I only have 3 1/2 days left of summer. I think tomorrow I'll just sit in my room all day watching Gilmore Girls & possibly painting. I'm going to do as little as possible.

As of right now, I'm really trying to find a way to make some money. But, not being old enough to get a real job, I'm stumped. And although I'm not really wanting lots of things, the prices are not so small. What are the things I want?


for this, I already have the initial $25, but I want to get it digitalized & a T-shirt would be pretty awesome.


this baby - a Nikon D40 - is my dream. right now I'm stuck with a point and shoot Fujifilm. which isn't so bad, but if I want to pursue photography in college, which I do, then I figure I need to start getting acquainted with it now. okay, so maybe that doesn't make much sense, but to me, photography is everything. everyone at church knows me as the person who takes a ton of pictures at ever church event. I take a lot of pictures. not so much of my daily life, because the camera simply doesn't do the things I would like it to.

anyway, the next thing I need to start saving up for is drivers ed. I think it's around $300, & I need to start that next summer so I can get my license before senior year. because the way it's looking right now, I'll be getting my license the summer before senior year. which is crazy, but there's not much I can do about it unless I take it during the school year, & I don't really want to have to worry about that over my classes.

& then, once I can drive, I'll need a car! but that's a situation I'm still not sure about, & will need to talk about with my parents sometime soon I suppose.

but then after all that, college. & I haven't even narrowed down my colleges yet. unless you consider the region I want it to be within. NORTH. I hate the heat in the south. unless it's California, I wouldn't mind living there. except for the expenses. but, why not go to college there? Sigh, I don't know. I need a school with a Photography major, & I want to take some art classes (of course) along with Psychology.

Anyway, for now I need to get some laundry & dishes done.